What I Write

"I am ashes—

2012-01-03T16:56:00.005+07:00

—where once I was fire."

Because you have to fall, in order to grow.

Holy damn, I morphed into a 19-year-old on December 31. I guess, I'm gonna stay 18 forever. You know, young at heart, always. Like, what's the fun in being a grown-up? Hahah. However, 18 is really the mean age (in my life) by which I have made my major decision about who I am and what I like. This is constantly changing and readjusting itself forever of course, but it is pretty much in place at the age of 18. The year has been a thrilling year. Many exciting moments and there are difficult times too, a lot. I'm having a good time, when suddenly *BOOM* I'm 19 now.
Being a half-adult. 12 months to go until I'm 20. 12 months before I'm feeling like being abruptly pushed off a cliff into adulthood. I think I should really do something this one full year. But, what?

Oh, whatever.
*sing a long to "18 Till I Die"*
*enjoying life*

Cheers to youth!

✌

The Year of Clichés

2011-12-26T19:26:00.001+07:00

Delicate Goodbye by Chaz Knapp on Grooveshark

Good things come and go like bad things, obviously. I read it somewhere, that not everything (not a thing, I would say) stays forever, but there are some things you'd fight for, so you can have them just a little longer. But when the time comes, let go.

A lot has happened in a year, yup. Enough to make me realize that not everything needs to make sense. Sometimes you just have to feel something you have never felt before.

No need to question 'why is this happening to me?' or something like that. You can't force something to work the way you want.

It flows or it doesn't. It's meant to be or it isn't.

Simple.

Just embrace it. Embrace everything and each feeling that comes to us.

If it's happiness, savour the sweet moment while it last. If it's sadness, then face it, learn as much from it as you can, get stronger, get wiser. If what you feel is that flat emotion somewhere between happy and sad, man up, do something, be spontaneous, take the risk, feel the adrenaline rush. #realtalk

Life is simple.

Thanks. Thank you. For everyone. For the people who make me happy, sad, miserable, 'die' of laughter. For being there. You guys are the best. I'm thankful for having you (as my parents, siblings, cousins, friends or even strangers), I'm thankful for what I've been through, I'm thankful for what I am right now, and I'm thankful, for I have lived in 2011.

Because of you, you, and you. Oh, you too. Yes. All of you. *bowing*

50:1

2011-02-03T12:26:00.001+07:00

“PostSecret: Fifty People One Question ”

The way this is filmed. It makes everything looks bright, colorful, and beautiful. Or maybe that’s just how life is. In any case, the not being able to fly, the couple, and the death one really got me.

Incepted

2010-07-17T16:11:00.002+07:00

Just watched Inception yesterday. It was no doubt one of the most thrilling cinema experiences I’ve ever had. Totally a mind-bending movie. Something that provokes my brain. Whatever people says or whatever they’re doing, trying to figure out what’s the real ending is, I personally think Nolan want us, the audience, to go along with it without having their logic reject it. And one thing I learned from the movie, your reality might be a dream and vice versa.

Won't spoil anything here, not even the screen caps. So yeah, just go out, see this movie and enjoy!

Locomotion

2010-07-08T20:24:00.001+07:00

There is a day when I woke up in the morning and feeling like I am moving in slow motion. Feeling disoriented. Like I was disconnected from my world.

At that moment I will lying on bed and wondering.

What now? What is next? How should I feel? What is going to happen?

Want to go back to dreamland. But I realized I have reality to live for. I just get out of bed. Goes through daily routine. On the other hand, the day seems surreal. Somehow… I don’t feel a day.

Weird, really weird.

+1

2010-07-02T08:10:00.005+07:00

"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were thing like astronaut, president, or in my case… princess.

When we were ten, they asked again and we answered - rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we've grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how 'bout this: who the hell knows?!

This isn't the time to make hard and fast decisions, its time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love - a lot. Major in philosophy 'cause there's no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again, because nothing is permanent.

So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be… we won't have to guess. We'll know."

— Jessica Stanley's Valedictorian Speech

(Movie; Twilight Saga: Eclipse)

"Too Late"

2010-06-21T23:08:00.004+07:00

Today I went to see "Letters to Juliet" with my sister. It was nice. Yes, I know this is a cream puff of a movie. But I enjoyed it on so many levels. This movie gives me warm feeling and a little bit shiver at the same time. A good time-killer and worth a watch if you like romantic-comedy-kind-of-movie.

Well, I'm not going to talk about it. Because I'm not a good movie reviewer. So yeah, why on earth am I writing this?

Here's the reason: I'm tickled by the famous line in this movie. The line in which Claire tells Lorenzo "Sorry I'm late," for keeping him waiting for 50 years. And Lorenzo says, "When we speak about love, it's never too late."

Now, speaking about "too late" I want to share a beautiful poem by Charles Bukowski. Enjoy.

oh yes

there are worse things than/being alone/but it often takes decades
/to realize this/and most often /when you do/it's too late/
and there's nothing/worse/than 
too late.

So true.

When it comes to feeling, true feeling, deep down inside. Sometimes, we fool ourself. Too hard to understand. Too hard to admit. Too hard to believe. We were too afraid to take the right step. Until we realize, it's just, too much, too little, too late.

Beware!

Ps. If you are too confused to take any step and decided to wait.

At least, just wait until it's ALMOST too late.

I am Pissed Off

2010-06-19T20:29:00.004+07:00


pissed \|pist\| vulgar slang adjective 1 (also pissed off) feeling like you can kill everyone in 1000 mile radius.

(Source: Urban Dictionary)

I know some choices just have worse consequences than others and nobody can stop me from doing anything but myself. I make all of my own decisions, even if those decisions are to do what I am told, or what people say I 'should' do. It annoys me that people need a reason for me to be the way I am. Keep complaining about the mistakes I make.

I'm fucked up because I fucked me up because I chose to fuck me up. Not even kidding or being sarcastic here. It's no one else's fault, but my own and I'm okay with that. So why isn't everyone else?

As I said in my previous post, "Mistakes are mine to make and I will learn from it."

So, what is wrong with making mistakes, if we could learn from it?

And by the way, stop complaining about what anyone else doing. Do work. Do you.

Peace out.

10.04 AM

2010-05-13T10:13:00.006+07:00

Sitting beside my windows. Cloudy morning.

I'm not seeing any sunshine shining through the cloud.

Closing my eyes, enjoying morning breeze.

A morning like this. Bringing back memories for me.

Opening my eyes. Staring into nowhere.

Seeing nothing but everything. Eerie.

Taking a trip down memory lane.

An opaque flashback.

Places. Smells. Voices. Motions. And emotions.

Laughter. Tears. Smile. Happiness. Sadness.

All feelings. And then black.

Disappear, like smoke. Without any receptacle.

Then I stuck in a sustained pause.

I want it back.

You. She. He. Them. Us.

Our time.

Everyone.

Everything.

Tihs is Czary

2010-05-09T10:30:00.001+07:00

Just found it on Tumblr. Such a fun fact to post. Hope you enjoy!

If yuo can raed tihs, you hvae a sgtrane mnid, too. Can you raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can. I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno’t mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? Yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! If you can raed tihs forwrad it.

If you can read this your brain is 50% faster than those who can't. So tell me, can you read this?

Life's What You Make It

2010-04-27T19:37:00.004+07:00

Because life is like a video game but you are both the controller and the controlled.

As I grow older, I try to find a better control of myself.

Need to choice smartly and hoping that choice can be my power.

Otherwise, I'm afraid, it could be my laxity.

Think about today as one more opportunity,

to complete what I have not be able to do up to yesterday.

Pray a lot. Do the best. Then wait and see.

If it is God’s will, I hope I can be what I want to be.

(Amen to that.)

Say, Shout & Whisper

2010-04-12T19:08:00.009+07:00

She always thinks they are not built to last, shatter like glass.
"Come on," she says. She don't give a damn.
Even she can't remember anything, like what's his favorite game?

But who knows where that path will take them?
And then she shouts,
"Let's go ahead hand in hand and promise not to let go.
Because it may lead us somewhere massive & astounding."

So she just put her arms around him.
And, finally, she whispers, "Oh dear, I love you. "

She loves him.

I Hate

2010-03-29T12:01:00.017+07:00

I hate being told what to do. Especially when I'm really sure with what I am doing and I understand the consequences.

Okay, oftentimes I do not to listen to anyone. That does not mean I am a very bad person. I mean, oh yeah that's bother me a lot when I should listen to somebody that told me what to do and what to think?! It's my mind. On the other hand if you are asking me to do something nice for you, sure I'll do it. I have no problem with that. I love being nice and I love doing nice things for other people. And sometimes I ask people to do something for me too but it's because I would do the same for them.

Look, thank you for your guidance but telling me how to run my life wont help. If you tell me what to do, just prepare for a backlash.

And about mistake. It is mine to make and I will learn from it.

Thanks for reading.

Wouldn't It Be Nice...

2010-01-17T14:12:00.008+07:00

Let's finish the immortal words of The Beach Boys!

This is my "Wouldn't It Be Nice..." thoughts for the day. Enjoy reading.

Wouldn't it be nice if school isn't starts at 6.30 AM?

Wouldn't it be nice if I found myself having more and more free time every day?

Wouldn't it be nice if traffic moved swiftly and easily every day?

Wouldn't it be nice if they can invent a transportation that can do it all? Flying on air, ride on water and drive in the street?

Wouldn't it be nice if the world wasn't bad as it is now?

Wouldn't it be nice if global warming turned out to be a blessing?

Wouldn't it be nice if more things were recyclable?

Wouldn't it be nice to have peace in the world?

Wouldn't it be nice if this world were musical?

Wouldn't it be nice that eating chocolates made you lose weight?

Wouldn't it be nice if we could embrace every day as a new day?

Wouldn't it be nice if I could be kinder and more tolerant?

Wouldn't it be nice if we could break all of the rules for just one day?

Wouldn't it be nice if you got to wear whatever you wanted without being judged?

Wouldn't it be nice to run somewhere else?

Wouldn't it be nice if life were like a dream?

Wouldn't it be nice to have an endless amount of money? And I never had to work another day in my life and traveled all over the world. And found a hot, sweet, smart, and funny guy to live together with. And gave me some adorable babies. And got skinny again....and live happily ever after.

I think that'd be very nice.

Note:

"I hate life. I love life. In the end I just find myself happy to be living life, no matter what's being thrown at me."

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What's yours "Wouldn't It Be Nice..." thoughts for the day? Tell me! :>

C'est La Vie

2009-09-24T08:10:00.006+07:00

People talk shit when you're not like them. With the big 'L' in the forehead. Sometimes, it's like them telling you, "You'll never amount to something when you're... You."

Shit happens.

Agree or disagree? You decide.

Ps. Pardon my hiatus.
Now that I’m a senior high schooler a lot of things will changed.
I have to keep my grades up while doing every thing else that is involved with being a senior.
Totally not keen.

Let's Survive Monday!

2009-07-26T22:05:00.012+07:00

So sorry for my lack of blogging, again. Well it's been a busy busy week and it seems things are only going to get busier. On Sunday afternoon, I had a little time to myself, so instead of doing the nothing, I decided to start up blogging. Things have been a bit crazy the past few days but in a good way. June is going to be just nuts. But, I guess that's a good thing because life would get rather dull if we ended up doing the same thing all year round.

Well, tomorrow is Monday for me. And I'm pretty much hates monday morning. I hate it how I start to dread Mondays right on from Sunday. I swear, on Mondays, school should start later so I don’t have to get up so early! I don’t hate my school. I actually enjoy it most of the time. But Monday morning…especially a Monday after a long weekend, I completely dread it. Sometimes Monday even makes Sunday sucks.

Do you dread Monday? I have simple trick to make them a little less stressful.
Try to wake up about 90 minutes before you need to leave. Hop in the shower. Enjoy the water and think about how great today is going to be. Don't skip breakfast. Get ready for school/work. Listen to your favorite songs in the car and by the time you arrive at theschool/ office, you should feel pretty happy and energized.
Hope that would be usefull.

Anyway, I found another great short movie on YouTube.
SIGNS. One of the 2009 Cannes Lions winners.
A simple short film about communication. Created by Publicis Mojo and @RadicalMedia. Directed by Patrick Hughes.

If you like the soundtrack, you can check out @ http://www.internetdj.com/signs-music

Watch and let this sweet movie adding a little sweetness to your day!
Happy Monday everyone <3

"The new week takes the vehicle out of park and gets us back on the road to success. If you'd rather sit in the parking lot, than think about what you're attracting with a heavy sigh and dread of Monday. Is it what you really want your new week to shape up to be? Whatever you think, you're right!"

Ps. Tell me what is your trick to survive Monday?

It's About Time

2009-06-27T22:42:00.008+07:00

What is time?
Time is a well-founded illusion.

Time kills. Time heals. Time reveals.
But tell me,
How do you feel?

Time will always change. Time doesn't stay the same.
There is always going to be a time.
But will you do something when that time comes?
What will you do when that time comes?

Let me ask again, with all seriousness, what is time?
"Time is the path to glory or the path to hell."

Why Me? Is It Just Me? Well, It's a Matter of Perspective

2009-06-18T14:50:00.014+07:00

Have you ever wondered why bad things always seem to happen to you? Oftenly we said, "Why do bad things always happen to me? Why not her or him? Why me?"

Well, first of all, let me set it straight, bad things happen to everyone. None of us can escape having bad experiences. We need to know why some of us experience bad things more often than others? One thing we must keep in mind is that many times what appear to be 'bad things' are simply a matter of perspective.

Everything in this world can be seen as you wish to. Depends on the way we look at things. Good or Bad. Simple or Complicated. Easy or Difficult. We act as the magnet and attract whatever we wish to be surrounded with. When we think positive, we draw positivity and when we think negative thoughts, negativity is what will come to us.

You know sometimes the answer depended on perspective. How you see things can and, often does, determine how you respond. How you respond is primarily based on what you believe. What you believe is based on where you put your faith.

This way of looking at facts could change our entire life. We should never regret the moment we chose and we should always search for the brightest side of things in every single moment of our life. That’s what a wider perspective gives you. Don’t think you know what’s best if you haven’t seen it all. It just might be something that you have missed.

Have anything good happen to you lately? Changing your perspective could change your entire life. Go on! Take a chance. Someone took a chance on you, didn't they?

Serenity

2009-05-10T01:14:00.004+07:00

"Breathing in, I see myself as still waters. Breathing out, I reflect things as they are."

Have you ever caught something that happened to you didn’t go your way, where things didn't go as planned, upset you for some reason, or being bipolar?

Whenever your mind is busy there is one reason for it. You’re not living in the moment and accepting reality as it is. When I'm upset about something. I'll try to change it by either thinking about it over and over again hoping to make it better, or I’ll try to push it out of my minds by thinking or doing something else. I don’t want to feel it, it sucks.

Everyone seeks peace and harmony, because these are what we lack in our lives. From time to time we all experience suffering(don't you feel it?). We all experience pain and sorrow. Usually ,I try to quiet the mind and stop reacting. Spend time doing something I love. Such as a hobby, reading, listening your favorite music, etc. Or, spend quiet time alone, to relax my body and mind, even only for a few minutes and I know, I can't afford more :P

Sadness may frequent our life often or visit your weeks sometimes, either way a quick exit from these over stressful times is needed. Just think of living up to the fullest extent this very minute. Don’t hold a grudge, have no regrets, because you only have one life to live.

Validation

2009-05-02T09:36:00.005+07:00

Hey, it's May. Sorry, for my lack of blogging. Anyway, today is Saturday. Just another lazy Saturday morning. So, I'm browsing through YouTube. And found something interesting.

YouTube video Validation by Hugh Newman. It tells the story of a man who works by validating parking tickets. He gives new meaning to the word validation, actually, he gives true meaning to that word.

Sometimes, we're discover something that people do see, but maybe, we're probably too shy to speak up. Afraid that our act might be rejected. Or that they might get laughed at. What happens when you try to make people smile, but you can’t? You keep on trying?

Don't you realize, make people smile is priceless. Just to know that you’ve brighten someones day, it's amazing.

Feeling down? Need a validation, maybe? Go watch the video. It’s worth it. Then go out and make someone smile. Doing this can make a big difference in other peoples lives. ;D

Tagged Thingy

2009-04-24T10:41:00.006+07:00

1. Tagged by: Little Miss Fhenny

What is your current obsession?
Astronomy. I think exploring astronomy has the potential to be unexpectedly interesting.

What is your weirdest obsession?
I like biting people.

What are you wearing today?
T-Shirt and shorts.

What’s for dinner today?
Gudeg rice. (traditional food from Central Java (Yogyakarta), Indonesia which is made from young jack fruit.)

Makeup kit you cant live without?
I don't wear any make up, so...

What would you like to learn to do?
Rrrr, photography? I don't know.

What’s the last thing you bought?
The Witch of Portobelo (Paulo Coelho's book).

What are you listening to right now?
Kyte song.

What is your favorite weather?
Crisp air. A hint of sun, and a light breeze.

What is your most challenging goal right now?
To get it all done.

What do you think about the person who tagged you?
Sweet. I love her passion of fashion ;--)

If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
A little village in England.

What would you like to have in your hands right now?

A ticket to Prague.

What would you like to get rid of?
Get rid of a nagging mom.

If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
Zlatá Praha!

Which language do you want to learn?
Spanish.

What do you look for in a friend?
Silliness.

Who do you want to meet in person?
Oprah Winfrey.

What’s your favorite type of music?
Pop, alternative, rap, techno, classical, reggae, rock... let me just save some time here and say all of them. I like anything that's good.

What’s the favorite piece of clothing in your own closet?
My gray unbranded jacket.

What is your dream job?
Doctor and designer, hm.

Any favorite models?
Coco Rocha.

If you had £100 now what would you spend it on?
Go on a shopping spree or have a spa day with my friends ;p

Favorite designer?
Stella McCartney.

Fashion pet peeve?
Amy Winehouse Beehive or anything similar to that.

Do you admire anyone’s style?
Alexa Chung.

Describe your personal style!
I've never been able to describe my style, because I don't dress in one certain style.

Last fashion magazine you read?
N.E.E.T. Magazine

2. Tagged by: Manja

1. How many gigabytes of music are on your computer?
I've used up only 1.16 GB cause the rest about 70 GB is on my sister laptop.

2. The last CD you bought?
I haven't gotten CD in such a long time. Last CD I got was Modern Minds and Pastimes by Click Five, not bad either ;p

3. What were you listening to when you were tagged?
Missed the Boat by Moddest Mouse.

4. Five songs that mean much to you or that you listen to all the time?
They Won't Sleep by Kyte
Boundaries by Kyte
Ágætis Byrjun by Sigur Rós
Anthems for a Seventeen Year-Old Girl by Broken Social Scene

Details on the Fabric by Jason Mraz ft. James Morisson

Let's Decide

2009-04-20T10:01:00.015+07:00

Recognize the power within your choice is out-of-the-way.

Your choice gives you the power to decide who you are each and every day.

However, the choices that you made yesterday, last week, last month or last year, will brings out a new possibility for today.

So.
What will you choose for yourself today?

Who will you decide to be today?

Limitations

2009-04-16T17:49:00.016+07:00

"You have powers you never dreamed of. You can do things you never thought you could do. There are no limitations in what you can do. Except the limitations of your own mind."

Darwin P. Kingsley

I'm positively agree and I think that's very rightly said. Darwin reminding us of our unlimited possibilities.

How far we can push our limit?

Nothing can limit one and if anything which can limit is our mind. Our strength is totally controlled by our mind. When we decide that we have to accomplish something, no matter what obstacles arise, we still manage to push through, overcome and achieve our goals. We need to believe that we can.

You know, I have the spirit to live. Sometimes I realize how much time I was wasting, wasting time. Life is too precious to filled by scrubby worries. So, don't be afraid to face the challanges and explores every possibility in life.

No doubts, fears, or negative thoughts and you had all the confidence and drive necessary to take the correct actions forward to achieve everything you want. Believe in ourself, Recognizing our skills and abilities. Have faith in ourself.

For me, when I cross my limits, it makes me feel alive and feel so free. I become unlimited.

Click the picture for source!

Luck

2009-04-11T18:56:00.013+07:00

I believe in luck. There is luck. Some is good some is bad. I believe that some people are born with lots of it and some people who aren't so lucky are born with a bit. Don't you think some people make their own luck , some people are luckier than others , and some people have rotten luck all of their lives? I have a few people in my life who are considered to be truly lucky. And I've just realized something, it seems like lucky people are people who are not afraid to take a risk.

For myself, I find that my luck doesn't come often. Once in a while something happens that has one out of a hundred chance. I'm agree that people can make their own luck. There is random luck out there. You have to create your own luck. You have to create the situations that will allow the opportunity for real luck to happen. Sometimes I feel, when I'm in a bad mood, I find that luck is far away from me. When I feel happy and optimistic, good luck will come to me. The harder I work, the luckier I get. Person doesn't seek luck, but luck seeks the person, eh?

Well, what goes around comes around, peeps! If you find you are lucky now, maybe something unlucky is waiting for you. And if you think you are the most unfortunate person in the world, maybe you could find some luck tomorrow. Life is balanced *wink*

Let's be prepared. Luck is truly preparation meets opportunity. Remember, luck is real as long as you believe it. If you believe there to be. Grow your own luck. Sometimes we have to create it ourselves when faith has left us. At the end of all things, we're all quite lucky, in one way or another.

How about you, do you believe in luck (or maybe a goodluck charm)?

Warmth

2009-04-07T16:34:00.007+07:00

" I'm still feeling your heartbeat.

I feel every little move you make, each slight movement causing a silky, slippery sensation to run screaming to my brain.
It's heaven to be inside you like this, feeling your softness all around me.
Warm, I feel as though I'm holding your heart, touching your innermost feelings for me.
Your hand keeping my hand from leaving your chest, holding me close to your heart and telling me how you feel.
You hear me speak, as though both close, yet far away.
The words don't awaken you, but rather, they take you closer to that warm sleep you've been enjoy-ing.

And all I said was "I love you." "

Daydream

2009-04-04T18:12:00.015+07:00

"A daydream is a visionary fantasy experienced while awake, especially one of happy, pleasant thoughts, hopes or ambitions."

Daydreaming. Who doesn't?

I spend a lot of my time daydreaming. I am the world's biggest dreamer of all time.
I love to let my mind just wander. Usually, I think about my life. But, there are also times where I just create beautiful scenery in my mind and imagine myself there.

Daydreaming is good, it shows what we can't do but we fulfills it in our daydream.
Daydreaming is even better than reality. You never ever get hurt in your daydreams, eh? No matter what. Its the perfect place to be.
I am daydreaming mostly in the school. I have not control over my ability to concentrate for any more than a few seconds at a time ;P

Do you daydream?

Remember, don't just dream, take action!
You may dream. But, living in a dream, is a huge mistake.

So, happy dreaming everyone! :D
xo

Fly Me to the Moon

2009-03-30T20:21:00.018+07:00

Well, I think moon is my new drug of choice.
Last night, I spotted a sweet crescent moon in the night sky. It was inviting and warm, and placed in the perfect direction in the sky, as if it were a smile, looking down at me, watching me, watching all of us. This cheered me after a lousy day. Really breathtaking.

I also love seeing the Moon in the daytime, its just magnificent. The way when the daylight is all around our skies illuminating them deep blue and that sometimes I see a half-moon and other times a three/quarter-moon.

And one day I had a clear view down a long street with the most fantastic full moon I’ve ever seen in my life. I just stared in awe at this fiery looking orb.

Woohoo, thank God, You created this thing:)

Some Lovely Words

2009-03-28T07:07:00.023+07:00

Seven secrets of success?
I found it in my room.

Roof said, "Aim high."

Fan said, "Be cool."

Clock said, "Every minute is precious."

Mirror said, "Reflect before you act."

Window said, "See the world."

Calendar said, "Be up-to-date"

Door said, "Push hard to achieve your goals."

Inspired by this.

---oOo---

But overall, the important things are hapiness. For me hapiness is the main key of success. If you enjoy and love what you are doing, succes will come to you.
Nothing good ever happens and nothing good will ever come to you when you are doing something that do not interest you.
Be sure to love what we are doing ;)

One-Minute Excellence

2009-03-24T20:52:00.020+07:00

"One-minute excellence. I can sense the curling of your lips. While such a catchphrase makes me shudder, too, it contains a gem waiting to be discovered."

You know what? It's literally getting into my mouth and interrupting me. *sigh*

Appear and Fade Away

2009-03-21T08:24:00.011+07:00

Earlier in my dreams tonight, someone from my past appeared who I haven’t thought about in quite a few years. He appeared in my dream briefly. Even though his appearance was a few seconds, I couldn’t help but feel down when I woke up.

I have never tought about him in years. But somehow, I was able to see him in my dreams.

Weird phenomena these dreams are.

Passion of Fashion?

2009-03-15T22:15:00.009+07:00

Ummm, not really.
I just do some sketching. I love drawing anyway :)
Well,what do you think? Love it or hate it?

Lullaby Poem

2009-03-13T20:32:00.014+07:00

No more nightmares

I’m here at your care. No more night scares I’m here to help you bear. Twinkle twinkle little star, How I wonder where you are. In your home, in the car,
It don't matter, you're my star.
You should sleep, Count the sheep. One, two, three, You’re asleep. I’d like to call you my boo.
What I'll say, what I'll do.

In seconds, one two,

I love you.

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Reading the poem, on rainy night, and remembering our sugary memories.
Let me sing you a lullaby.

Poem: here

What You've Got?

2009-03-09T21:26:00.012+07:00

Well, after all this stressful feelings, I've learned something.
That we must be kind to ourself. You know, our body needs for more support. So, say yes to sunlight, fresh air, and enjoyable movement. Acknowledge your efforts and successes. Speak kindly to yourself.Watch movies that inspire or make me laugh, I love it. Have more fun!

Joy is not going to magically appear. Joy comes from inside you. Joy is now, not later.

Anyway, don't you think the more you have experienced troubles, the more you experience happiness in life? Thats what I've got!

And thanks for all the support huys.
Got something to tell? Be sure I'll read it :)

Feelings

2009-03-05T19:46:00.008+07:00

Burst out laughing?

or

Burst into tears?

Well,

Any advices?
Calming me down or cheering me up maybe?

You Better Shut Up :|

2009-03-04T20:13:00.005+07:00

Remember:
Always keep your words soft, simple, and sweet, just in case you have to eat them.

Mid Test Stress

2009-02-27T19:22:00.008+07:00

I have a mid test this coming Monday. So what is a girl to do? I have a bad feeling this might not end to my standards );

The more I think about it, the more it seems like I am in fact living the typical life that a high school student lives. Life revolves around school. It involves long nights studying and always being tired. It involves much intellectual activity, exchanging of ideas and conjuring up great theories that could make the world a better place and then forgetting about them a few days later :B

I need to let go of some stress. Like, get some alone time. This may sound strange, but finding a few moments of peace and quiet for yourself it's amazing.

I really wanna study. Although I hate studying. But I just cannot drive myself to do it.
It’s only Monday.
Tired, groggy, upset sleeping pattern.
It will be a busy weeks, but life goes on and I have to deal with it anyways.
So, just enjoy the life and keep praying.

Wish me luck, please >_>

Six. Random Things About Myself.

2009-02-23T20:03:00.008+07:00

Tagged by: July Girl :)

1. I'm always worried about my weight, but not really doing enough to control it.

2. I love trying a new restaurants. Really. It's like my mother. Well, like mother like daughter, LMAO.

3. I love making people laugh and love getting better at it.

4. I love to write. I love putting my thoughts down in story form, to tell my story through someone else eyes, have them do all the thing that I can’t or only hope to do. Make the reader feel what I can never express out loud ;3

5. I’m a people person, I love to be around people. But I rarely open up to people. To told anything about the real me, the real hurts, and what caused that pain.

6. I love to read. It doesn’t matter what I’m reading, what type of book, fiction or non-fiction. I would much rather read, then watch TV any day.

So yeah, hello you, that is me.

Doubt

2009-02-22T19:18:00.012+07:00

When I feel lonely, when I feel hopeless, what I want to do is move to the right or the left.
I don't want to feel what I feel.

Silver Elephant

2009-02-19T20:19:00.008+07:00

I have read Fifa's and Cassey's blog and and I've found something interesting. Fun site that can analyze our personality. So, I just tried it and here is the result:

"You are Silver Elephant, who gives an impression of being pure and innocent. You are not pretentious and are very straight forward type of woman. You tend to lack sweet sensitivity. Instead you possess strong will power and resolute attitude. You are a hard worker, and will not depend on others. You are a person who steadily puts effort. You think high of rationalism, and hence, lacks softness. Economically, you are precise and sound. You will not spend money on impulse. Although you don't show, you are actually a person with pride, and tend to be upright and little bit short tempered. You may act more maturely than your age, or more childish at times. This unbalance tends to be your attraction. You are very independent sort of person, and will not dare think to rely on men. You therefore try to take control of things. You can very well take lead of men, and have a skill of not showing that. Profit and efficiency is very important to you. You tend to choose your hobbies on that as well. Even after you get married, you wouldn't be turned by houseworks, and in fact will carry out it efficiently. You will take great interest in your children's education, and will turn out to be a good mother and a wife."

http://world.doubutsu-uranai.com/

Woohoo, you should try it everybody, it's scarily accurate.
xo.

Sum It Up In Four Words

2009-02-11T21:58:00.023+07:00

Many way to describe many things in this world. But this is the way I describe something in my life. Enjoy. (Ps. you can try it too ;-))

---Friend---

Good Conversation + Laughter + You = Friend

---Family---

Odd + Warm + Inspiration = Family

---Mother---

Love + Wisdom + Caring = Mother

---Father---

Hero + Teacher + Friend = Father

---Sister---

Secrets + Sassy + Soul Mate = Sister

---Brother---

Fun + Helpful + Trouble = Brother

---High School Life---

Wild + Fulfilling + Search = High School Life

---Internet---

Addicting + Necessity + All-knowing = Internet

---Blogging---

Share + Making New Friends + Writing = Blogging

---Music---

Vital + Pleasure + Emotion = Music

---Life---

Blessed + Unlimited + Roller-coaster = Life

---Me?---

Just one word Undescribeable, LOL :D

If Life is a Stage

2009-02-09T21:41:00.007+07:00

What is our own role?

What is your role on life’s stage?

We probably have several different roles depending on the situation. Am I right?

One might be a good listener to your brother and sister, another could be very analytical person when you need to do some math problems (shees), another could be funny friends when you're with your best friends, another could be..., ah etc.

Anyway, let's treasure our uniqueness. Don't you think it is a gift given only to us? Infact uniqueness is the buzzword of God’s creation. Do your role. We are all mastepieces of God’s creation. Altough on the other side realizing our own role is the biggest block, duh D;

Life is your stage.

“We are here to celebrate the festival of Life and to enjoy it through understanding what we are and why we are here”

Happy Life :/

2009-02-05T21:35:00.008+07:00

What is the secret?

Thousand million dollars? Errrrrrr....... nope.

Sexiest man or woman alive? Hemmmmm....... nope.

What else?

Maybe this,

"Keep your heart free from hate, your mind free from worry. Live simply, expect little, give much. Fill your life with love. Scatter sunshine. Forget self, think of others. Do as you would be done by. It’s the way to happiness. Try this for a week and you will be surprised."
— H.C. Mattern

Whatever, maybe it sounds cliché, but it’s very mindblowing. And though difficult to practice. It’s not easy, really. For me make someone else smile is the best, for now.

Let's keep up this for our life, always life simply and be happy. Why not? ;-)

Yesterday

2009-01-31T10:33:00.010+07:00

Yesterday,

I find myself getting really irritable for almost no reason. And suddenly feeling down without knowing why. Going from joy to anger to sadness in a matter of minutes? Blargh. (Swear, I hate feeling this way!)

Yesterday,

I've learned that I can't take decision when I am angry.

I've learned that I need to think twice before I act.

*sigh*

Yesterday,

I'm begging myself to act wise. Come on!

Boredom

2009-01-27T11:45:00.010+07:00

Do you agree with this statement?

“Life is never boring, but some people choose to be bored.”

Well, nowadays I think I'm quite boring. With my life. (Or i just choose to be bored, eh?)

I have wonderful friends and family. But it's just everyday conversations, habitual chores and even intimidating silences when I am alone. Grr. I'm enjoying my holiday and I miss it when it’s gone.

Mother Theresa says "Life is a challenge, meet it." Well, I've met my life, but where is the challenge?

Any advice how to make my life worthwhile? Or you just feel the same way too?

Imagination

2008-12-30T01:31:00.011+07:00

Gue salah satu orang yang sangat mengagumi imajinasi dan tipe orang yang sangat suka berimajinasi, hahaha. Imajinasi itukan bebas, nggak ada batasan dan abstrak. Kita bebas ingin berimajinasi tentang apa dan kita sendiri yang menentukan batasannya.
Lawan dari imajinasi adalah ilmu pengetahuan, yang bersifat pasti dan terikat. Dan gue bukan tipe orang yang suka dengan ilmu pengetahuan. Bener deh, entah kenapa, bagi gue ilmu pengetahuan nggak cukup untuk menjawab seluruh misteri atau teka-teki di dunia ini. Gue juga yakin kalo emang imajinasi dan ilmu pegetahuan saling menyeimbangkan. Tapi adakan saat dimana rumus-rumus nggak bisa menjawab pertanyaan yang ada dalam pikiran kita. Jadi deh kita berimajinasi. Kapan aja dan dimana aja. Fisika, kimia atau matematika nggak akan pernah menjawab kenapa dunia ini ada, kapan dunia akan berakhir dan ilmu pengetahuan nggak akan bisa menghasilkan seni. Gue nggak bilang imajinasi bisa menjawab dua pertanyaan pertama. Tapi imajinasi bisa kan menghasilkan seni. Seni apa pun itu. Tanpa imajinasi mungkin lo nggak akan pernah denger musik favorit lo atau nggak pernah baca buku favorit lo. Karena adanya imajinasi, orang bisa menciptakan sesuatu yang luar biasa yang ilmu pengetahuan belom tentu bisa membuatnya. Intinya imajinasi buat refreshing lah. Nah, itu asiknya imajinasi bagi gue. Coba kalo nggak ada imajinasi di dunia ini?
Oya, satu lagi keunggulan imajinasi. Kata orang imajinasi lah yang menghasilkan ilmu pengetahuan. Bahkan Einstein yang super jenius bilang bahwa berbagai teori fisika yang dia hasilkan itu bermula dari imajinasinya. Ada juga satu quote favorit gue:

"Keep on dreaming cause dreams do come true." - Anonymous

Jadi, ada benernya juga sih kalo ada yang bilang nggak ada kebenaran tanpa imajinasi. Seenggaknya kalo nggak ada mimpi atau imajinasi, nggak akan ada usaha lo untuk mewujudkan itu semua.

"My one regret in life is...

2008-12-26T00:20:00.016+07:00

...that I am not someone else." - Woody Allen

Ngena banget nggak sih kata-katanya Woody Allen? Bagi gue iya. Apalagi yang barusan. Manusia itukan nggak pernah ada puasnya. Pengen selalu lebih dan lebih. Entah kenapa ya. Mungkin karena manusia punya nafsu dan emosi jadinya kayak begitu. Pengen jadi orang lain. Sesempurna apapun hidupnya pasti ada aja yang kurang. Atau ini karena Tuhan Maha Adil?

Hahaha, nggak tau deh. Tapi bagi gue nggak selamanya jelek sih kalo manusia itu nggak pernah puas. Nggak selalu harus serakah. Ada yang bilang sifat dasar manusia untuk melakukan perubahan dalam hidupnya dan itu salah satu hal yang membuat hidupnya berarti. Iya banget. Manusia itu punya khayalan, yang mungkin jauh jauh dari batasan apapun. Bebas.

Bisa aja dengan sifat ketidakpuasan mereka justru akan membawa ke perubahan yang positif. Jadi lebih baik, berguna, bla bla bla. Yang jelas lebih baik dari kemarin.

Well, kita nggak pernah tau apa yang orang lain pikirkan. Tiap orang memang beda-beda dan entah baik atau buruk arti ketidakpuasan dia itu. Tapi gue rasa setiap orang tentunya tidak puas karena masih belum sebagus yang dia inginkan dan menuju keperubahan yang lebih baik. Jadi sebelum ada bukti itu negatif. Let's just say it's a good thing!

Bagaimana dengan elo? Punya rasa ketidakpuasan? Yah, kalau pun ada gue harap itu untuk hal yang positif. Bukankah manusia itu cuma pengen kedepannya lebih baik dari saat sekarang.

Zlatá Praha. It's heaven, isn't it?

2008-12-25T00:08:00.013+07:00

Agak berlebihan ya judulnya? Hahaha, mungkin. Tapi emang seperti itu kenyataannya. Prague's such a wonderful city :o) Bahkan kota ini menjadi inspirasi bagi Mozart buat nulis lagu. Sebagus apakah aslinya? Pengen baget rasanya kesana.

Tadi gue lagi browsing, yeah, biasalah nggak ada kerjaan lagi-lagi, dan berpikir pengen deh liburan ke luar negeri. Ngayal. Demi memenuhi hasrat gue yaudah gue memutuskan untuk liat-liat aja dari internet. Gue maen-maen deh ke LonelyPlanet. Liat gallery negara macem-macem. Sampe akhirnya gue nemu Prague. Woooweeee. Deskripsinya oke dan gallery-nya lumayan dan gue mencoba mencari tau lebih jauh. Tentu saja terutama gambar.

Dan ini adalah beberapa gambar yang berhasil gue temukan, enjoy the breathtaking scenery *wooh*:

Hmmm, cukup menggambarkan pemandangannya kan? Dari siang, sore sampe malem. Nggak ada tuh salah satu dari itu yang mengecewakan. Hahahaha. Bangunannya keren, pencahayaannya oke banget. Hah, mupeng.

Lebih jauh tentang Prague lo bisa cek di LonelyPlanet. Have fun.

FYI, tadi gue juga liat overview Jakarta di LonelyPlanet. Mereka bilang:

"Jakarta is a Pandora’s box, filled with unexpected gems."

Hahaha, what do you think?

Halo :o)

2008-12-23T21:07:00.006+07:00

Halo semuanya. Hahaha. Gue mulai berpikir untuk menulis Blog. Entah bagaimana kelanjutannya, terurus atau terabaikan hahaha. Sebelomnya salam kenal yak ;-)

Foto gue bareng Sisi

*yang kata orang kembar?*